Missing In Action


The following is not my typical review or upbeat writing. As many people might have noticed it has been quite a long time since I have written anything. I am sure some people might have given up on the idea I would return, some people might be wondering where I went, and some people might not of cared. So here is where I was and where I am going.

Last year was one of the absolute hardest years of my life and that is saying a lot as my life has had many crazy twists. For quite some time I had been battling an upper respiratory infection which kept coming and going. Soon into the year I lost my cobra health insurance and I spent an endless amount of time on the telephone trying to figure out how to get Medicaid. First, I got Florida Medically Needy Medicaid which was an absolute disaster and put me into debt. After about two months I went on Florida Medicaid which makes things complicated, but was a huge relief.

During all of this I broke my left arm while changing my shirt. I went to see an orthopedic surgeon who said I had a cyst in my arm. The orthopedic surgeon said I needed to have an MRI and see an orthopedic oncologist. I was very nervous and began taking it one step at a time. I was also in an extreme amount of pain, but I have to be extremely careful as narcotics can not suppress the pain, but also suppress my already compromised respiratory system. The break in my arm caused many issues because I use it eat, use my phone, type, for balance, and to position myself. A few weeks later I went to get an MRI as recommended and during the transfer from my wheelchair to the MRI I severely injured my left hip. I still do not if I broke it or just severely strained it. A week after I injured my hip I was getting dressed and trying not to hurt my hip or arm when I over stretched my right knee. I was already not sleeping well from the pain in my arm and hip, but now with the added pain of my knee sleeping was not an option. To top things off the upper respiratory infection I had came back with a vengeance causing pneumonia. While being treated for the pneumonia I found out that my chronic anemia also came back to the point my skin was almost translucent. At this point I was in severe pain, had literally not slept for more than one hour a day in over two months, could barely eat, and could hardly breathe.

I wish I could say this was a dream, nightmare, story, movie, or even an exaggeration, but it was not. It was one of the hardest times of my life physically, emotionally, and monetarily. I am not telling this story because I want pity or sympathy. I am telling this story because this is where I have been and what I have survived. I found out after doing the MRI I have no cyst in my arm, but I do have osteoporosis. My hip and knee have fully healed. My upper respiratory infection and pneumonia are gone. My arm is no longer causing me pain, but is still swollen and I am slowly working to regain strength. I continue to monitor my chronic anemia, but it is under control. Soon I will begin treating my osteoporosis. I am also off all narcotics and sleeping through the night.

I want to thank all of my friends and family that were there for me during this time. I know I might not have been the greatest at staying in touch, the happiest to be around, and or the nicest. I also know I might caused you a lot of fear and or worry.

I love life, but sometimes it just sucks and we learn to fight for that better day. In conclusion, I am still getting my strength back, but I am hoping to begin writing a lot more so please stay tuned. Over the last few days I have begun typing with two hands again and begun be able to feed myself. These might seem like simple tasks to many, but it means I am going in the right direction and slowly getting my independence back.

2 Responses to “Missing In Action”

  1. Sara says:

    Its refreshing to see you in positive spirit after all you have experienced. I am rooting for you, hope you recover soon.

  2. jb says:

    hiya Zach, thank God for your resilience brotha! And I’m glad to realize you’re reclaiming your strength, goodwill, & carrying on forward….

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